On the 7^th of October, I walked hurriedly to the clinic

Just wanted to confirm if it’s true or a mere trick

I was alone and nervous, worried like a freak

Everything was a blur, and I just felt so sick.

I waited patiently for my name to be called

When I heard it finally, my body turned cold

It was a strange feeling that my breath seemed to be on hold

Then I snapped back to reality and did what I was told.

The mattress was icy against my bare skin

Nothing can make the atmosphere serene

A single touch was enough to make me squirm

Had to surrender and all I could do was stare blankly at the ceiling.

Thought the hardest part was over, but I was surely mistaken

The well-lit room suddenly narrowed and darkened

And in an instant, I was severely shaken

The ugly truth went out, I was frightened.

I had to be composed and pull myself together

So I struggled to walk steadily and tried not to falter

It was hard enough to stand, more so to smile after

And as I walked back to the office, didn’t realize that tears were everywhere.

I used to tell Mama that she shouldn’t be scared

When this happened to her, I was brave for her

Yet now I can’t seem to find strength and courage

To deal with the situation and to act of age.

They told me everything’s going to be okay

Still I feel scared when I go to bed and lay

I try to put on a happy face, wishing that my fear would go away

But who am I kidding, I know it will surely stay.

I fervently hope that it’s nothing serious

Because I can’t afford to make anyone anxious

Especially my family whose love for me is so obvious

I pray to God, please, pretty please, help me overcome this, help me be courageous.

first

this is my first entry. at long last, i have started my blog. i'm not really good at writing, but i enjoy it nevertheless. it allows to me go somewhere else far from the real world that i am in, it allows me to daydream, to fly, and to forget all the worries that i have.

i especially love writing poems for my loved ones. it was a hobby that started way back when i was in elementary. just recently, i wrote poems for my mama and papa for mother's day and father's day, respectively. i think it was by far the most special gift that i have given both of them. the expression on their faces when they reading my gift was priceless. it made me cry and made me realize more how lucky i am that i have a wonderful set of parents. they are just two people i cannot ever live without and i won't trade them for another mama and papa. love them so much.

with this, i'd like to end my first entry:

i am so lucky to have been raised by the best
i thank God Almighty, bacause i feel so blessed
mama and papa can't be compared to the rest
they are just simply amazing, the world's greatest!